Half way

Tomorrow I will be officially half way. 20 weeks! Everyone says it going by quickly. I will be excited to find out what it is next week! Only a couple more days.  I'm trying to enjoy the time i have with my awesome two. At the beginning your tired and sick. Now as you get bigger it's harder to move and sleep. It's a funny cycle. I've been sick for a week! I have a bad cold. It started with a fever and barf gross now on with a cough that won't quit. I wish I could something to stop coughing but not so lucky. 

I'm hoping to get the kids into some fun stuff over the summer. Swimming, dance, baseball! I'll just get bigger. 

The kids are getting antsy for the baby to get here but the summer will move fast it always does. Summer is awesome with the sleeping in and hot weather. I just wish wade had a summer break too. 

Im nervous that we will be out numbered! The two I have are super pack and play always up for a new adventure. I'm crossing my fingers this one will be up for that also.

Shaylie is doing amazing on her reading! She scored highest in her class for the end of the year reading test. She loves to read. It took me years to find a love of reading but she loves to read. Wade says she got the reading skills from Crystal. 

Briggs is beyond ready for organized sports and classes. He is ready. Poor thing gets bored with me at home all day. That boy will be an amazing athlete one day. His heart is already set for BYU football ( thanks grandma). I'll have more to say next week!

Here we go again!

  We so long you ask? It's because I'm 16 weeks pregnant and I've been to sick to do anything. Lol. 

We asked The Lord and got answer, our family was not yet complete. It was time to add on so here we are. Pregos with the third. We are excited and the kids are beyond excited. It's going to be so hard to be patient for those little kids of mine.

We had decided to not tell people for a while. We told my parents at 9 weeks with a video of Briggs saying "there's a baby in mommys tummy!" We showed it to her when we took her out to lunch for her birthday. Of course she thought it was the best present ever! We waited till 12-13 weeks to tell our close friends and I probably won't post on Facebook until the little one is here. We will find out soon what we will be expecting soon! 

To say I have been sick is an understatement. From the day we found out I have been ill. After 4 weeks of not eating  and 10 pounds of weight loss I got some much needed medication. It has helped a lot. Unfortunately I still can't eat any form of meat, pasta sauce, peanut butter, and a few other things(most of which I have thrown up).

I'm glad to be only throwing up a couple times a week.

So many changes heading our way and I'm excited to face them. School will be out in a little less than 2 months and then summer starts! Gotta love summer. I'll be happy to sleep in. I know I'll get pretty big during the summer but I still love summer. Well that's all for big news. Have a good day!

Fighting a losing battle

Sometimes as a stay-at-mom we feel like we are fighting a losing battle. There are days full of smiles and laughter but today is not one of those days. Every turn is faced with a new small but frustrating problem. I'm trying. But it's not going to turn out my way. Not today. 4 o'clock and I'm ready for pjs and everyone to go to bed. Every new annoyance will not be solved. Not today. I'll try again tomorrow. 

Statement

Why does everything have to be a statement! I'm so so sick of everything having to be a statement. Every tv show, commercial, movie, song, post, store sign, everything! Everyone just has to push their ideals upon you and if you don't agree your intolerant and horrible. I thought that if you lived in this country you could live the way you wanted but that's not where we live anymore. I can not raise my children the way I want. I have to go with the "social normal". All the values that we had before are out the window and if you still believe in them your closed minded and a horrible person. NO. I refuse to be a product of society. I will live the way I chose! I will not be force to believe and embrace what other people have decided to be the new normal. No

Tell me

Tell me it will all be fine. Tell me that I will make the right decision. Tell me I will survive this tell. Tell me I'm strong and I this will not break me. Tell me that I'm doing right by my kids and my husband because they are my life. Tell me our love is strong enough. Tell me this to shall pass. Tell me I know what I'm doing. Tell me they will love me no matter what. Tell me this is God's timing. Tell me I have faith enough to believe that. Just tell me.

Year of change

This year started with a bang. We first has a funeral with my moms side of the family. It was so nice to see them. I really wish they all lived closer! 

We found out Wade's company got bought out and we are bring bought out of all the stock wade had invested. This means it's time to buy a house and make some big decisions. Change is hard. It's always an adjustment. Good or bad change is hard. Our family is in for some changes but I'm excited. I'm looking forward to a new direction And the strength that doing what The Lord wants us to do will bring us.

This will definitely be a time to pray. 

Today is the Super Bowl and we are wanting the broncos to win! It will be a fun day with the family. Let the sweatpants and food start!

Turn the page

By New Year's Eve I was ready to turn the page on that year and start a new. New Year's Eve was fun. The kids had a blast. Brooke was awesome enough to open up her house so everyone could get together. We played games and ate food. The best part of the whole night was the dance countdown. At 11:30 we started a dance party and danced until 12:00! We welcomed in 2014 dancing and setting off fireworks. It was a great start to the year.

Like my 12 o'clock kiss? Lol

On January second I got to say goodbye to a good man. At the time I didn't know I was saying good bye. I took my kids over to see grandpa. He was struggling to breath bc he had caught a cold and we thought maybe he had gotten some fluid in his lungs. He was sleeping in his chair fully dressed for the day. After the kids got wiggly we decided to leave giving hugs and kisses and saying we will see you soon. I left at 6 and at 10 I got a call saying grandpa had stopped breathing and had passed. Part of me broke and the other side was happy to see there was no suffering. We had been there showing our love just hours before. Wade and I drove back to the facility to be with my family as they took him away. I still feel like it's surreal. I felt so weird.

The funeral was held this pass weekend. Lots of joy lots of tears. I love having all my family together. Aunts, uncles, cousins, second cousins! We had so much fun being together. Plus there was so much love and support during the funeral. I was able to sing " I stand all amazed" the feeling in the room and the pure testimony of Christ was amazing. I'm so grateful to have to knowledge that we can have eternal families. That our families can be together forever. I'm so grateful for the love and support that so many people have shown me. Thank you!