Fears and tears

I'm not person who lets the news affect me but today no matter who you are it got to you. 26 people were shot and killed today by a 20 year old kid. He walked into a elementary school and killed 20 kindergartners and 6 teachers. The unspeakable horror. The fears of all those parents and the realization you have lost your kid to such an awful end. I pray there was no fear or pain. That the parents can some how be able to bare the pain and sorrow they will feel for the rest of their lives. I've been continually prayed for Heavenly Father to comfort these families.so much loss and confusion.
I am holding my kids closer. Loving them deeper and cherishing every minute. That could have been my kindergarteners class room today. That thought will haunt me and that fear will be with me. You just have to continue to live and love.
I'm so grateful for my faith and that I know that those children are with a loving Heavenly Father.

Jazz time!

I know, two post in one day amazing! My parents thought it was a great idea to give all the boys jazz tickets for Christmas! Little did anyone know that they would be floor tickets on the very first row behind the basketball hoop! We ended up having club 100 Jazz tickets which had a dinner before hand and a wonderful snack bar at half time! Wade was thrilled he had a great time I was distracted by the cute boys on the bench! Lol! We saw one of the players dislocated finger which was nasty wade really felt his pain! It ended up being a great time and I have lots of pictures to share the memory! I'm hoping that one day we can get tickets like that again and that will be a will to take our kids to a game! Awesome time!

The tooth fairy experience

Shaylie lost her first tooth! It Had to be the funniest thing I've ever seen. Wade and I decided that we would tie a string around Shaylie's tooth Then we would tie that string around Briggs waist. Then we would tell him to run. We were laughing so hard we couldn't even tie the string! It had to be the best idea ever however it didn't work out the way we thought. Every time we got the string tied around the tooth we couldn't get it tied around Briggs fast enough. We would get the string around the tooth but then he would start running before we could ever get tired around him. So with all of the almost successes we ended up pulling the tooth so loose that shaylie pulled it out herself! It was the funniest night ever. But then came the realization that the tooth fairy had to come that night! So I got a dollar and I put some glitter on it and put glitter all over her bed underneath your pillow! She was so excited when she woke up even though it was two in the morning she ran into our room at 2 o'clock the morning to tell us that the tooth fairy had come and there's glitter everywhere. In the morning I took pictures and now I have to live up to having the tooth ferry bring a dollar every time she was a tooth! Still love it!

My theory

So I have a theory. I believe that The Lord puts people in your life at certain times. He have people who come in and out o out lives all the time. Why? It's simple they are there for you or you are there for them for an event. Maybe one or maybe a couple but you are there or a reason. For example, we were friends and in the same ward as this awesome family. How we got to that ward was frustrating and not fun . We didn't understand why The Lord lead is there but we were there and intended to make the best of it. So we were in the awesome ward with great people. While we were there tragedy struck more than once. First a horrible accident involving a BBQ. The father of the family was horribly burned and everyone pulled together to help this family. Next this awesome family on thanksgiving was in a tragic accident losing the father and 2nd daughter. This was when I understood why were there. My husband had lost a sister in a car accident years before and was able to work closely with this family to help them threw the beginning of the pain they were feeling. After that there was another hard loss and it was The Lord that pushed us in another direction.
When we are needed The Lord directs us to where we need to be and who we need to help. I am so grateful for that. The friendships and lifelong connections I have made along the way are priceless. So as I said at the beginning we have people or we are the people who go in and out of people's lives. I'm excited to find all those who are waiting for me. I know we have to sometimes we out of our comfort zone but sometimes that is where we find the most comfort.

Slacker

I'm a super slacker lately... Well I don't know if I'm a slacker or I have too much going on. The weather doesn't help my "don't wanna doing anything" mood. I gotta keep truckin. Moving on.... Good notes.... I got to go out with my sister, going to be sister in-law, and her two sisters to the last movie of the twilight saga! It was great! We had a blast and we laughed so hard talking after the movie. I loved that I got to geek out and had supporters to do so lol. Another good note... Shaylie has a lose tooth and she is so happy about it. She has been a little bummed bc all her friends have been losing teeth but not her so she is glad to join that little party. Briggs is also doing great. He's getting so tall. We found out last night while we were all out for dinner how much he loves vanilla soft serve. He had three bowls! Shaylie was a hunger caterpillar last night too. One whole steak, 3 pieces of watermelon, grapes, 2 rolls, and a large ice cream cone. Lol. They grow so fast. I'm glad I get a whole year and a half with Briggs before preschool so I don't miss out on more.

Dad's moment

We had a relaxing Saturday and we didn't have to be anywhere which is a 1st in months! We went to a movie with the kids. Pitch perfect is the best movie. It's super funny( warning some inappropriate content) we were laughing pretty hard. Anyway we had a good day. Shaylie and I were painting our nails and the boys were playing in the backyard. I looked outside and realized wade was having that moment. The moment you dream of as a dad. Playing ball with your boy. It was so tender so I had to take a picture. While I was having my moment with shaylie, us both painting our nails pink and talking about stuff we like, wade was having is boy moment with Briggs. Awesome

Ready, set, slow down!

Time to slow down! The last couple of weeks have been crazy! We family parties, church events, dance class, and shaylie's school events I have been running around with my head off. 1st being in the stake YW presidency has been a blessing and I have loved it. I have awesome people I work with! We were in charge of a multi-stake church dance. It includes 8 stakes. On average they have 200-250 kids that show up to these dances but how many did we have? 483! Ya that's right! We blew the numbers out of the water! The DJ was awesome, the decorations took forever but looked great so much time so many leaders put so much time and it was great! That was that big event
Next but probably the biggest was chad got engaged! My baby brother found an awesome girl, fell in love and now he is engaged to be married! I love her she is great! I so excited to have her in our family and so happy for them. Briggs love her and cries when she leaves so that's great. Lol.
Finally Halloween always crazy and always fun! My kids are cute! Shaylie has a blast at her age and Briggs only wanted to go to the doors with his dad. I don't think wade was upset that Briggs only wanted him. :) It's the best having so much family and love around on the holidays even when it's crazy.
As much as I love Halloween I'm glad it's over so I can slow done and stop running I'm pretty sure my body is rejecting all the madness. I need to reboot! We have lots more partyin and craziness to come!

I'm going to miss this?

Staying up all night with a coughing baby has never been my idea of awesome. Briggs has gotten a cold and was up all night and shaylie was throwing attitude like it was going out of style that's when I ask myself I'm going to miss this? People always say I'm going to miss this stage but I don think I will. Lol. I still love this time if year even with the colds! The trees look beautiful and you can smell the fireplaces being used at night. Love it! I can't believe that it's the 18th already! I haven't even put up my Halloween decorations! Super lame. Everyday I love where I live even more (even though I'm about to go downstairs and turn on the heater) my heart will always have a place in the Bay Area but this feels like home. My kids are crazy I love them colds and all. I know I'm going to miss a couple things, last night when I put a humidifier in Briggs room he came in saw the tank and started yelling "fishy"! He thought we were going to buy him a fish! Lol. Shaylies cute moment was I was trying to clean up and she ran in saying" mom you gotta see my room!"she had cleaned her room to help me out. Love them yep I'm going to miss this.

Life is good!

Life always has its ups and downs and right now we are on a up. I'm getting ready for Briggs birthday party tomorrow! I can't believe Briggs is 2! His big and talking and throwing fits daily. Awesome. Gotta love the 2s. With shaylie I wasn't prepared and I think I'll do better this time lol. Shaylie is doing awesome in school and I'm amazed at how fast she is learning. She is a smart kid. I have her a center stage dance also and I'm trying to figure out how serious she is going to wanna be with dance. They are teaching her great form and skills and am grateful for that. Sunday was my anniversary that i thought I would be spending alone but wade came home from is business trip early and surprised me! It was the best gift ever! Top off with season tickets to hale theater and crab legs! I love that man! And then there was all the awesome friends that support me and love me! Sarah dropped on treats! And Bree heart attacked my house! So much love! Thank you!

7 years?

Wow where has the time gone. I can still remember our wedding day like it was yesterday. I can honestly say it was the best day of my life. I remember the look or terror/relief as I walked in threw the temple doors and holding hands as we signed our marriage license. The way we looked at each other during the ceremony and the pure joy we felt as we had our first kiss as a married couple. Today I still love that man. We been though a lot. Two kids, job changes, illness, church callings, family stuff, death. And believe or not I love him more and deeper that this day 7 years ago. I love you Wade and looking forward to all the adventures to come!

Love fall!!!!

I absolutely love fall! I was married in fall, Briggs was born in fall, the leAves, pumpkins, hot cider, fall festivities, cornbellys, sweatshirts, cute cloths, pumpkin patches! There are just so many things especially here in Utah. Fall is the start of all the holidays too. ( which I'm not sure I'm ready for) I got to take shaylie on a field trip on Wednesday. It was at the apple farm. I loved it. They also had a pumpkin patch to pick from. It was great and beautiful and I feel super blessed to live here right now! They had this mega slide there that the kids just loved!

Wow twenty somethings

So I have an apartment behind me that have a bunch of twenty somethings that party every night! 2-3 in the morning on week days! Outside loud and its driving me crazy. I don't want to be a lame person but this is so not cool. I pretty sure when I was under I had enough respect for people that I would shut up. So I'm not sure what I should do. Ugh. I'm probably most mad at the disrespect for everyone living around here, have some respect Young Bucks!!!!

Already this time?

I thought when shaylie got to school life would be a little easier with her gone three hours during the day but that's a lie! How do I have less time? Briggs take a little nap when she is gone but when she gets home it's homework and cooking dinner time . We have a little time as a family and then it's time for bed. I'm putting both of them down at ten and still don't go to bed till 12. Crazy. I love to see how much she has grown and learned in the last month. She really loves school and all the social stuff that comes with it. Poor Briggs hates to drop her off. He's lonely when she is gone. I guess I'm not cool enough! Lol. And no I won't be having another one any time soon. With this new season I have made new friends! It's been great having people you care about around! So my life is crazy and busy but blessed with music, love and laughter so gotta love it

Scarred

So yesterday the kids and I went to watch wade play football. He's in this little college league that play on Saturdays. Full contact full pads I had just got everyone set up to watch the game when wade walks of saying he is out. I was confused until I saw it in all its nasty glory. His pinky was sideways ugh. Our awesome neighbor drove him to the hospital and I thought for sure we were in for surgery but wade lucked out! It was a what they called a compound dislocation. Where it was completely out of socket and no where it was suppose to be. We finished the night with an awesome date. We went to see 9-5 at the hale theater in west valley and it was amazing. The music was GREAt!

So here are the photos of wades hand. BE WARNED! It's super nasty!

So it's official

I'm insane yep it's true. I have been called to serve as a councilor in the stake yw presidency. And here is the crazy part! I said yes?! Well this will be interesting. With wade being in the bishopric, working a full time job, and going to school, we are limited on our time as is so here we go! If the Lord says I need to I will. I'm a little confused on why He wants me there but I guess I'll figure it out. The good part is my kids are awesome and are very understanding. And Wade is a huge support. On a lighter note we went to the fair and had a blast! It was Briggs first time at the fair and shaylie loves all the little ( not so safe) ridesmy parents came and we ate food, listened to music, and had some great people watching!

And we are back!

Man Disneyland was a blast!13 people is a large number to travel with but it was so much fun for our kids. Having 5 kids under 6 was crazy and terrific! I would recommend it to anyone! We spent 3 days in the park and got on most all the rides. To top it off we got to go on the new Radiator Springs Racers! It was a great ride! One of my favorites by far. It had the story telling element to it, which was awesome and then the roller coaster speed at the end! Everyone loved it! The only downside was that briggs wasn't big enough! He loves Cars the movie and would have gone crazy on the ride screaming in delight but too little. There is nothing better than seeing pure joy on your kids faces when they see Mickey or Minnie Mouse! Lots of money and lots of smiles. I hate coming home and getting the vacation blues. My kids were pretty good there and we got home and it's a lot of tears all the time. They miss their dad that had to go back to work and school. But I'm so glad that we went and got to spend great time as a family!Here is a couple photos.

SOOOO BIG! Love my kids and have to post some pictures

How did I get here?

I'm back to writing this has to be some kind of record for me! I can't help but sit here and think about all the decisions I made to get here at this point. Right now I'm sitting in my car with a beautiful boy in my back seat and I'm waiting for my wonderful baby girl to get out of her kindergarten class. Wow how amazingly bless I am. Yes I have been struggling with things lately such as stress and change but the lot. Has blessed me and my family in amazing ways. We are here, we are strong, and we are together. How much more can I ask for? I know I complain a lot and I need to stop so this is me trying. The lord has blessed me to be where I am at right now. I have an amazing group of friends right now. People I think sincerely love and care about me and my family. And I can honestly say I love these people equally. I have a husband that works hard and loves the lord and will serve and love others with his whole heart. My kids are amazing, beautiful, talented, and a blessing to me every day. So I'm look at all the hard and crappy things we have had to endure and be grateful

Change

Why it that change is so hard for me. Maybe I get it from my mother. Change is sometimes good sometimes bad but change always happens if we want it to happen or not! I have noticed that changes always happens when I don't want it to happen. For me when I have something that changes my life I have a dropping hit the floor crippling feeling at first. I wanna yell and maybe start praying for nothing to change. I have no idea why I react this way but I hate it. After I get used to the idea I'm alright and I can handle the new trial that has been thrown at me. I have learned that every time I'm comfortable in life i get hit the the face. EVERY TIME! I'm trying to change this freak out moment right after I find out so I'm writting, praying that I can handle it better. But even as I sit here I am praying for all to stay the same and for life to not make me have hard decisions. As a parent it seems like all decisions are hard from where they are going to school or some that should be as simple as what snacks your kids could eat during the day. Then there are always the though " is that the best change for them" or " am I being selfish and making the decision based on what's best for me or them". As a teenager you think that your making tough chooses....... Then you grow up. I know I'm complaining but I'm trying to figure life out. Thanks for listening

I know I know it's been a long time

Once again it has taking me so long to get back to this. I have found that it's good for me to write out was going on but there is never any time to do it. Isn't that how is always works out? I started running again which is awesome but it has cut out my sleep! sacrifice right? I was called to the YW in our ward which has been an awesome blessing. I loved going to girls camp and spending time with this awesome girls even though it takes me away from my family. Wade is still in the Bishopric so it's kinda nuts at my house! We aren't home much. Shaylie starts school next Tuesday! I can't believe I'm a mom of a school age child it's crazy. Briggs is rapidly approaching 2 and acting more his age every day! 2 with Shaylie was hard and it looks like it wont be easy with Briggs either. Briggs is addicted to the Disney movie CARS. Everything is cars to him. It will be so fun watching his face as we walk into cars land and Disneyland in 2 weeks!! I'm counting down the days can tell? lol. Shaylie is a dancing machine. She is always flipping and dancing around. She is a Disney Freak just like her mother so to say the least we are all pretty excited. We are going as a Family with my parents, brother, and my sisters clan. 5 kids 6 years and under. It is going to be a blast completely crazy, off the wall, nuts but awesome! Connor is 6 Shaylie 5 Millie 4 Briggs kinda 2 and Blake 1..... ya I know this is going to be crazy awesome. On other news on my party blog I am do a series on all the stuff done at girls camp, all the disney projects I have been doing and a mario cart birthday. Lots and Lots of Stuff. Soon it will be fall and Fall is my favorite time of year. All of the beautiful colors, sleeping with the window open, haunted houses, cider, parties, and all the awesomeness that comes with holiday seasons. Hopefully I will be back to blogging in no time!

So Big!

I can't believe my baby just graduated from preschool. i know it seems dumb to freak out about that but it seems so fast and she seems so young to be.... so old. She is definitely ready to have more school and learning. I love her but she needs to be doing something all the time! So it will be good for her. Briggs is a lot to handle so having only one at home will be nice. Summer is Here! I wish I felt better. I've had a couple sicknesses so i'm ready to be better and tackle the summer! We have passes to water parks and wanna go somewhere! Here are some pictures of bug graduating!

Blender

So I have found that my life is in a blender. About a month ago Wades uncle had an accident at home and hit his head. He needed up passing way the next day. Next thing you know we are on our way to St George for a funeral. A good trip where we could spend some time with his family I just wish it was under better terms. The following week my brother in-law's dad passed away. Once again we found ourselves at a viewing. Life continued and Wade got moved from Heber to provo for work which was a huge blessing. We got a new bishop....but Wade is still in bishopric. We got massively sick with strep. Wade had to go out of town (last min)We found out a dear friend is going to only be with us a short time longer. And another friend lost a baby. I feel like life is a little crazy. some good and some bad. other then that it is life in a blender. lots going on but not a lot of time to talk about it. Life is good even with all the bumps.

time

I really wish I was better at this. But here it is April and just now updating. It's been a rough couple weeks. Funerals and rough times but there has been so much good lately also. Wade has moved from the Heber Utah store to the Provo Utah store which is less than ten mins away! He will be home more and I don't have to worry about him driving the canyon in the winter! Its a great move. Shaylie got into Noah Webster Academy which I'm so excited for. It's a great Charter school and it's really close to our place. I was so nervous about her going to school every day with people I don't know and I feel so much better about it now that she is in this school. I'm so glad I have Wade. We have been able to work together through all these and I'm so glad we have each other. i know it's mushy but I have to say it.Briggs is big and crazy. Always climbing and jumping and yelling and throwing. He throws everything. Ask my mother she got hit in the face with a hotdog the other night at dinner. Less then a year of school! I can see the end of the tunnel. I wont know what to do with the extra time with Wade or the money we wont be paying to UVU. With no student loans, when Wade is done with his BA we are done paying. Who knows were we will go from there! Well until next time! Pr