SOOOO BIG! Love my kids and have to post some pictures

How did I get here?

I'm back to writing this has to be some kind of record for me! I can't help but sit here and think about all the decisions I made to get here at this point. Right now I'm sitting in my car with a beautiful boy in my back seat and I'm waiting for my wonderful baby girl to get out of her kindergarten class. Wow how amazingly bless I am. Yes I have been struggling with things lately such as stress and change but the lot. Has blessed me and my family in amazing ways. We are here, we are strong, and we are together. How much more can I ask for? I know I complain a lot and I need to stop so this is me trying. The lord has blessed me to be where I am at right now. I have an amazing group of friends right now. People I think sincerely love and care about me and my family. And I can honestly say I love these people equally. I have a husband that works hard and loves the lord and will serve and love others with his whole heart. My kids are amazing, beautiful, talented, and a blessing to me every day. So I'm look at all the hard and crappy things we have had to endure and be grateful

Change

Why it that change is so hard for me. Maybe I get it from my mother. Change is sometimes good sometimes bad but change always happens if we want it to happen or not! I have noticed that changes always happens when I don't want it to happen. For me when I have something that changes my life I have a dropping hit the floor crippling feeling at first. I wanna yell and maybe start praying for nothing to change. I have no idea why I react this way but I hate it. After I get used to the idea I'm alright and I can handle the new trial that has been thrown at me. I have learned that every time I'm comfortable in life i get hit the the face. EVERY TIME! I'm trying to change this freak out moment right after I find out so I'm writting, praying that I can handle it better. But even as I sit here I am praying for all to stay the same and for life to not make me have hard decisions. As a parent it seems like all decisions are hard from where they are going to school or some that should be as simple as what snacks your kids could eat during the day. Then there are always the though " is that the best change for them" or " am I being selfish and making the decision based on what's best for me or them". As a teenager you think that your making tough chooses....... Then you grow up. I know I'm complaining but I'm trying to figure life out. Thanks for listening

I know I know it's been a long time

Once again it has taking me so long to get back to this. I have found that it's good for me to write out was going on but there is never any time to do it. Isn't that how is always works out? I started running again which is awesome but it has cut out my sleep! sacrifice right? I was called to the YW in our ward which has been an awesome blessing. I loved going to girls camp and spending time with this awesome girls even though it takes me away from my family. Wade is still in the Bishopric so it's kinda nuts at my house! We aren't home much. Shaylie starts school next Tuesday! I can't believe I'm a mom of a school age child it's crazy. Briggs is rapidly approaching 2 and acting more his age every day! 2 with Shaylie was hard and it looks like it wont be easy with Briggs either. Briggs is addicted to the Disney movie CARS. Everything is cars to him. It will be so fun watching his face as we walk into cars land and Disneyland in 2 weeks!! I'm counting down the days can tell? lol. Shaylie is a dancing machine. She is always flipping and dancing around. She is a Disney Freak just like her mother so to say the least we are all pretty excited. We are going as a Family with my parents, brother, and my sisters clan. 5 kids 6 years and under. It is going to be a blast completely crazy, off the wall, nuts but awesome! Connor is 6 Shaylie 5 Millie 4 Briggs kinda 2 and Blake 1..... ya I know this is going to be crazy awesome. On other news on my party blog I am do a series on all the stuff done at girls camp, all the disney projects I have been doing and a mario cart birthday. Lots and Lots of Stuff. Soon it will be fall and Fall is my favorite time of year. All of the beautiful colors, sleeping with the window open, haunted houses, cider, parties, and all the awesomeness that comes with holiday seasons. Hopefully I will be back to blogging in no time!